Resolutions? I have none.

such a cliche when we come to the end of a year, and we ask people , "what are your resolutions for next year?"

i read so many postings about resolutions for next year and accomplishment for this year.
so many wishes, targets, and goals there..

okay, here are few highlights of my accomplishment in this year, 2011:
- i am brave enough to fight for my passion, and now it becomes my settle job
- have a partner to accomplish my passion
- still keep on writing and editing ;)
- having new second "families" :D (yeah, i got few second families, the first-second, second-second, and so on).
- Learning to be financially independent
and maaannnyyy surprising blessings which i cannot mention it in details. the things that didn't even cross my mind, but HE provided.

now about my resolutions, for 2012:
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I'm not leaving those in blank on purpose to make you questioning, but it's because i don't have any.
poor me? naah.. i don't feel so.
actually, as the year passes by.. I'm not a "resolution" person. I'm not a type that will write down all of my targets and goals for next year. My only resolution was when i was about to work on my mini-thesis. i promised to my self, that on the next term, i would have finished it and graduated.
You may say that I'm doing wrong, you may say that i have to learn to start writing down all the resolutions, that's your right. but i have right to ignore it ;)

I don't like to write it all in details, then start to questioning or anxiously thinking about it, whether it will be accomplished or not. I'm not a kind of competitive one, who likes to challenge him / herself to reach something according to the target. this thing clinically proven. I read my psycho-test on 2003. It stated that my "passion as achiever" showed middle range. i think it's applied until now.. i don't care about what kind of achievement awaits for me ahead. all i know just do and try my best, finish it, and the good (or even best) result shall follow.

it seems like i was born to be skinny, and I'm working hard to gain my weight. when the other girls are having diet to make their bodies in good shape, reversely i eat as much as i can. everytime it comes to weigh-in, i always say to myself "okay, no weight loss. if it's not gained, at least it shows a stable number". The same rule applies for other things in my life too. maybe after i work and try hard, it seems like no progress at all. Just keep on trying and think: if i can't make any progress by this time, at least I'm not going worse. keep on trying for better result.

so, all i do in the end of a year:
looking back at the things I've done, I've got, then think how to make it even better next year. No certain target i put for myself. I know my self very best. if i put a certain target, it will just make me frustrated or at least think of it over and over again. seems stressful right? hahaha.. for me, YES IT IS.

The important thing to do for me is: Forgive myself for every unaccomplished enhancement. Not to make any excuse, but i know to go even further i have to get myself together =)


The keyword: every improvement is valuable, event the smallest one.

Happy New Year Everyone!

are you brave enough? am i?

"When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
'Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile
The whole world stops and stares for a while
'Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are"
Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are

I'm really sure most of us are familiar with those lines.
yeah.. Bruno Mars, a heartthrob singer, has stolen women's hearts thru this song.
Every girl is now dreaming to have a boy like him, who will fall for her purely just the way she is.
in her worst look, her worst breath, her silly acts, furious mad, everything!

and yes, eventually we will end up with this question "that kind of love, does it really exist?"

cliche.

when we hear "I Love you just the way you are", we always refer "the way you are" as our mates' looks, characters, personalities.

"oh I've been befriended with him/her for ever! I know her/his character so well!" "I've seen her/him in her/his worst look" "My friends also said that he's/she's a good person and good for me" "we have many things in common, i guess. just give it a try"

I'm not saying those thoughts are wrong. not at all.
it's just...
these days, I've heard few "broken-heart" stories, and if i may conclude, it's all coming back to "passion and dream" issue.

when we love someone, it's not enough to just love her/his look, character and personality.
but it's also how to make our dreams and passions come true by being together.
Your dream and passion will make you alive. running without getting tired, trying without giving up, climb without hesitating. It will become your goal, vision and missions of life.
How can we run together with a person who is unwilling to run at the same direction with us?

maybe these days the meaning of "we'd better be friends" means:
- "I'm not brave enough to embrace your passion and dream"
- "your dreams and passions are too big for me"
- or even "i don't care about that. at all. so better i leave"

or some people put deeper and greater meaning:
"my passions and dreams are very precious. I'm halfway there, and i won't trade it"
"i will fight for it, no matter what"

it's all back to your choice and decision =) before we walk into a relationship, maybe some questions should be considered : are you brave enough to embrace your mates' passion and dream? am i? or even have i found my dream and passion?

Teacher = Public Relations.

Huwaaa.. apparently my last post was on 1st August. It's been a while since my last writing. yeah, I'm not a good blogger i guess.. XD. Many things happened in my life, but not all of it updated in my blog. Here just the (almost) most recent thing about me....
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"Miss..miss..help me", "What is this Miss?", "I can't do it Miss, please help me".
Setiap panggilan "Miss" itu dialamatkan padaku. Teriakan dan seruan itu yang sekarang tiap hari kudengar. Suara-suara riuh dan celotehan khas anak kecil membuat hariku semakin meriah. Anak-anak berusia dibawah enam tahun pun saat ini menjadi "klien" ku. Yap, setelah melalui berbagai cerita sebelum dan sesudah lulus kuliah, beberapa pengalaman berkarya dijalani, saat ini aku menyandang status sebagai guru taman kanak-kanak di sebuah sekolah Kristiani berlabel nasional plus. "Pahlawan tanpa tanda jasa" dan "pengabdian" mungkin itu beberapa kata yang terlintas di benak beberapa orang saat mendengar profesi guru.

Kalo ada yang tanya, "Gimana ceritanya jadi guru?", mungkin kita perlu mundur kebelakang lagi.. menuju bertahun-tahun silam saat aku masih duduk di bangku taman kanak-kanak hingga Sekolah Dasar.
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Dulu waktu tiba pertanyaan favorit guru-guru (dan umumnya dipakai di iklan-iklan yang memasang sosok guru), yaitu "nanti kalo sudah besar mau jadi apa?". tidak pernah terlintas di pikiranku untuk menyebut "dokter", "presiden", "arsitek". entah mungkin sejak kecil aku sadar bahwa menggambar bukan bidangku, dan hal-hal yang berbau obat-obatan juga bukan favoritku, aku memilih menyebut "Guru". Bahkan memikirkan pekerjaan yang khas perempuan, yaitu pramugari, pun tidak.
kenapa guru? entahlah. Sejauh yang aku bisa ingat, mungkin dulu aku melihat sosok guru sebagai orang yang sangat pintar. Ia tahu serta mengerti berbagai hal, dan berkuasa hahahhahaha.. berkuasa? iya, sekalipun ia bukan orang tua kami para murid, tapi ia boleh marah-marah dan mengatur kami. Apalagi kalo dia udah pakai bolpoin merahnya. Maka sosok guru seperti Harry Potter bersama tongkat ajaibnya. Bolpoin nmerahnya menari indah di atas setiap kertas pekerjaan yang susah payah dikerjakan oleh murid-muridnya, dicoret-coret dan Taaraaa.. muncullah nilai-nilai kami. hihihihihi.. dan yang paling mengasyikkan: terus berkumpul bersama anak-anak kecil! yah demikianlah di mataku, sebagai anak kecil. Impian menjadi guru ternyata bertahan hingga aku memasuki usia SMP mungkin, dan sejak dahulu aku juga memikirkan kalaupun ternyata aku menjadi guru, aku ingin menjadi guru TK aja. Kenapa? alasannya: "Soalnya pelajaran SD susah, lebih gampang pelajaran TK. kalo ngajarin pelajaran SD, SMP, atau SMP harus susah-susah belajar lagi"

Memasuki pertengahan SMP hingga SMA, aku mulai tahu ada satu profesi yang mengasyikkan : Public Relations. kenapa menarik? because in simple way, i see that vocation is dynamic, and allows me to meet, build and maintain relations with new people. Pemikiran-pemikiran ini yang akhirnya sukses mengantarkanku untuk memilih Jurusan Ilmu Komunikasi di bangku perkuliahan.
Banyak dan susahnya ilmu yang kudapat tentang Public Relations (PR) tidak menyurutkan bayanganku untuk menjadi seorang wanita karir yang berprofesi sebagai PR. Apalagi kalo lihat penampilan & aktifitas para praktisi PR, which is soooo professional, attractive, smart, dynamic. WHoooaaa!!

Each of us, has our own dreams and passions. Dream: comes from our idealistic mind. Passion: comes from our deepest heart. Now, here comes what we call as dilemma . It is when our dreams and passions have their own ways, and we have to decide which one will we go for.

As i graduated, and as i stated above that many things happened, there was a time when I read job offer as a teacher in a school. at that time, i chose to go along with my heart. My passion is "i can do something valuable for children, work with them, and prepare them for brighter future". So what can i do to accomplish my passion? being a teacher is one of the solutions ;)

maybe some people said , "hey, what the used of what you learned at college with what you do now?", "being PR and teacher are very much different from each other, how do you deal with that?".
now I'm saying say : PR and teacher, there are not much differences between them. why? here are some reasons:

1. Knowledge based. How we can say and teach things if we don't know a single thing =)

2. All about image and reputation. as what i've been taught in college, PR is about Image and Reputation. Image: what we show forward, reputation: what people see about us. As a teacher sure i have to watch carefully at my attitude. What i say, what i do, what i watch and see. in short term: be a good example for my students and their parents. =)

3. Know who the publics are. as i learned, PR should recognize who his/her publics are. The primary one, secondary, and so on, because it determined how we treat them. yeah, i thought my primary public was my students, but then i realized that before students, i have to deal with the parents first. Yeah, as the law in PR said: Influence The Decision Maker. In this case, sure the parents are the decision makers. Win their hearts first. How to do it? by giving our best to the children with our heart. ^^

4. Build and maintain relationship between company and public, become the communication technician. it's clear that teacher as one of "front-liners" for the school. Meet the parents, listen to their inputs, embrace their critics, and also stand as behalf of the school.

5. Event Management. Event is one of PR's tools for promoting and campaigning. So, it's important to manage the event from the very beginning until the very last. From planning, until the evaluation. As teachers, sure we deal with so many events for the children, for instance Independence Day, Christmas, etc. In planning, we should think : For whom? What's the objective? and all the preparation.

well, those were just few similarities of PR and Teacher that crossed my mind this time. So in my opinion, now can choose both my dreams and passion =) Once, my best friend said to me, "among us, only you who can finally fulfill your childhood's dream-job. you said you wanted be a kindergarten teacher, now you are!".

if you ask me "how long will you be a teacher?" my answer would be: "I don't know". who can tell what tomorrow brings, but all i know i will always want to do many things for the children thru many ways.